Look deep inside, it just comes out. That is to eviscerate.
To “disembowel”. It doesn’t sound feasible.
Like “ex-” (I don’t mean the heartbroken word for a person), it is “out” in Latin. “-viscerate” came from the word viscus which is the “internal organ(s)”. I don’t know but it could be a medical term (if someone knows, tell me).
Do you understand this feeling? Someone who you might feel disdained by and couldn’t stand it.
The more to hold it back, the more it builds. It can make you ugly from the inside-out. The best description of that is, a gargoyle.
I know there are people who don’t let their emotion sway their logic but, “following you heart” makes all the difference. It is called being human. Sometimes, you need to express it out. Make it come out because it is good. Or perhaps bad. It could go either way but it is still a process. Process is growth.
Whether you are unhappy, sad, annoyed, angry or sort of negative feeling, get it out because you need to empty it. You can’t fill something if it’s already full. Like night and day, bad and good exist together; but not all at once.
This is not a hard decision to make for yourself. You have all the chances to become who you are. It no different from choosing right or wrong. You have to pick what is right, what is right for you.
Now, eviscerate. Get it out and make it, to let it out.